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so tired...T_T if i knew how to put emoticons, i'd put some on..haha.
these few days quite hectic, yet, its also slow. now that my mom's gone her europe tour (note the heavy sarcastic tone), its up to me and my sis to do the house chores. so my day usually goes like this: plan when to on the washing machine, hang clothes, go to school, come home from school to cope with my over caring grandma, who thinks we need to eat every 2 hours (my sis said "oh no, she's coming tml", and it makes her sound a monster. haha), bathe, start on hmk, fall "dead", wake up to do packaging/get distracted along the way. note that i didn't add sleep inside. hee, cos i'm not planning to sleep this week until packaging is over and need to start on vma too...urgh. ah, need to borrow camera. and need to cook the noodles. 
what i've been doing over the weekend isn't very productive... both mornings i need to go the centre with my dad, to open and do the admin stuff. which means, half the time, i'm not doing my work. and i got distracted with solitare. =_= 
sunday, i went to afa (though i know i shouldn't have went), and saw alots of nice stuff. the best i think was the gundam cosplay. so cool! he was much improved as compared to last year, and we were watching him and his crew assemble the suit on him. the improvements were that he was a bit more mobile (get it? mobile suit gundam. hahaha! :D) and added abit more bling on his suit. the crowd surrounding him was astounding, and kept pressing closer and closer and closer. poor guy. saw a nice miku cosplay, and a few..err, weird ones too. the loli-s were nice too. especially the goth lolis! hee! :D saw alooot of cosplay, including an akastuki kid cosplayer. he was so cuuute!in all his gear and sitting down on the floor. couldn't tell who he was acting as, cos i can't remember all the akastuki members. poor kid too, to have to sit there and let peple ogle and coo at him and not being able to move. i want to cosplay too! haha. as L from death note, as rukia, as rin/len or miku/dark miku, as an extra or as yuki in vampire knight.. mann, so many things i want to do. haha. hopefully i can cosplay as one during this year's eoy.

saw lots of nice goodies too, but all super ex la! i want the death note chibi set~~! but its like $120 right now, since its new and they only sell the whole set, not one by one. buuu D:  i added another character to my favorites, which is dark miku! dunno whats her name though..haha. will find later. anyway, there was also a cosplay of her, whch was pretty inpressive too, considering the weight of the gun that's on her hand. she's bit of a crossover between shana of the flame eyes and miku, with the blue flame eye and katana. 
wish i could have gotten a sticker, but when i went back it was sold out D: oh well, hope that the artist comes back next year..and brings the goods :D 
feel like working for good smile company next time. haha! they are the company that produces the chibi figurines that are more popular in the market now. hee :)

hopefully, i can find the time to post the photos i took on my sis's phone. my phone died, and the camera's in europe now D:




this is my blog, so i can do whatever i want with it. if i feel like whining, i'm going to. so there!

updates and thoughts

recently, did a video recording for vma class. our storyline was about a girl who died in a car accident while on the way to school, and she goes through a series of events that makes her realise what had happened to her and find that she's dead. the (damned) teacher made us do it as a horror genre, and even got mad at us D: don't really like her..buu. anyway, i had the role of the un-dead girl, which means i was filmed alot. =_= urgh...

recently, went out with my poly friends :D hope we can go out again sometime, maybe after the assignment(s).  hopefully. =_= there are so many~~(moaning) D:

got really mad at school on fri today, to the extent where i couldn't even cover it up and almost cried (cause i was mad! i swear! i tend to tear up when i get really angry...which causes a lot of confusion for people. that is, if they see it. ha. find it irritating. it ruins the angry effect.) so i got really moody and mad and super sadist sarcastic. everyone who talked to me found me scary. haha. so i'd like to say sorry OTL  just a litte header, i get really mad if i sleep and someone wakes me up. usually, its when i've planned to sleep, and some irritating person wakes me up. grrr. for the class one, it's the teacher la! keep smsing poor kat to wake me up. sorry to bother you kat! OTL xD haha. and nathan and keemee ;D 
i mean! just cause someone is staying still doesn't mean they are asleep! then, if we follow this logic, then are all dead people sleeping??! if this equates, then all sleeping people are dead too! what the hell la! D:[  *fumes* 

right now, currently watching you're beautiful, a korean drama. they were touted as the new boys over flowers. its a little like hana kimi (nope, definetely not like the taiwan version). haha! the girl actress really looks like a boy when she's supposed to be in her guy role. the cast is as follows: Park Shin Hye(Goong S and also Etude House spokesperson in S'pore) as Go Min Nam/Go Mi Nyu; Jang Geun Seok(Hwang Jin Yi, Beethovan Virus) as Hwang Tae Kyung; Lee Hong Ki(from Kpop idol group FT Island) as Jeremy; Jung Yong Hwa as Kang Shin Woo; UEE as Yoo He Yi. because of this show, i look forward to thursdays and fridays, because they air in korea on wed and thurs. ;D

the story is about a girl(Go Min Nyu) joining a popular idol group A.N.JELL, in order to cover for her twin brother(Go Min Nam, who is also acted by Park Shin Hye) when he couldn't come back in time, and her journey in being a guy in a top idol group. this shows a lot of issues, like plastic surgery, gayness, fake characters and backstage (backstabbing) happenings in the ever shining idol stage. 
go watch! XD after watching, slowly i began to like tae kyung sshi :D even tho i didn't like him in the beginning. haha! i still like shin woo sshi though! XD right now, i'm listening to their songs, which are quite good, for a 'fake' idol group. haha! they actually got people who can sing for the cast, so as to ensure their singing ability and credibility. apparently, their released album got a higher response than what the producers expected, as they were not a real idol group. even the girl can sing! cause she's mainly an actress instead of a singer. and i like jang geun seok's voice! haha! :D i want my *future* boyfriend's voice to be like his! haha! its a plus if he can sing like him too :P ahahahaha! xD
but looking back, i only like the songs he sang in ANJELL and one other song. hmm...but no matter, his voice is nice :D jung yong hwa also not bad :D he's soo nice! if all guys were like him..haha. NOT gonna happen any time soon. haha.

also cut my hair, so it looks like a guy. hyahyah. serious. but the bad thing is it always poufs. like, ya know, boomzs. (sound familiar? xD) sigh...i hope it flattens out soon. i found a way to make my hair look nicer, and it looks like one of those korean idol hairstyle, with all that fringe. all i have to do, is pull more hair from the back to front and create a different hairline. unfortunately, it doesn't stay. haha. 
i sound a bit...hao lian? :P sorry if i appear that way.


still working on my portfolio, bds product design project + maya, vma project, itp considerations. omgggaaaaawdd. TT_TT

so dead...

because my mom is going overseas with my brother for 10 days, i (mostl likely) will have to take care of the house... =_=
this reminds me of back then in sec 2, when she brought my bro to beijing for 2 months. i admit, 10 days is not as bad as 2 months, but back then i didn't have school. school was still open for the last week when they left, so i took care of everything. the cooking, washing, mopping, etc. TT_TT  my mom even made me take lessons on cooking (but it was really just making me stand there while she cooked, and brought me to the market to tell me to buy stuff from which stores. frankly, i forgot the stalls, and i half remember how to cook the stuff she made me watch, and i do know how to load the washing machine, thank gawd.)
that's not the worst part. its my deadline. she's gone on the 19th and back on the 28th. my submissions' on the 25th. :| save meeeee~~!! Dx this means i have to take care of the chores while tackling my work and school.

what i planned is to finish more stuff before she leaves, so i have time to juggle everything. looking back at my performance, i hope it works...



also, i think my teachers are a bit funny... what if the company that we want for ITP wants the intern like, on dec or jan, and we say 'oh, we want to work in your company', and they reply 'okay', and then the downer for them is when we say ' we can only start work in march' . o_o won't they reject us? i mean, come on! who'd wait for an intern for like 5 months when they can get people who can work for them right away? =_=







i hope i don't appear too whiney or exaggerating...its just that i'm really freaked out. it might not be such a big deal... but what if it IS? TT_TT

Lost in Outer Space-uuu +black nails :D

super lost. i sometimes wish i hadn't gone into this course, and gone to some normal boring course and continue my fantasies about the designing world. i haven't drawn since, like about 2 years coutning from now... stopped around the o levels, and then .... yep. so if i want to gain back my skill, i'll need looads of practice.



i think i've said this before, that i've lost the passion. to a certain extent, but i still can appreciate all the stuff. i sometimes get that feeling, but once i draw it out, the drawings don't look right, and the feeling just goes away again. can't really bring myself to draw, or even do my own works for that matter.



today was filming day for VMA. ARGHHH!!! stupid WB!! and CY!! they drew out the whole storyboard. and they NEVER COME!! WTH FREAK!! damn idiotic la! even if you do have a problem, can't you explain it to us? we're not teachers, we're your classmates. your age. our mind works almost like yours. (bleh, teenagers) so tell me, huh, why can't you tell us? are we that unapproachable? we're GIRLS for goodness sake! we don't have the strength to beat you up!
since there's alot of loopholes, i try to fill them in. what happen was, on tuesday we filmed, but the files ended up being corrupted. so no film, so we wasted our time, essentially. so we re-filmed the WHOLE FREAKING film. urgh. and the best part? the 2 main camera man and storyboarder wasn't there. good right? and i wore my tues clothes again for nothing. D: PLUS i got them stained with the red food dye. my forearms, hands, neck all kenna the red dye too. the best part about the dye was that it really looked like blood. the idiotic part was that it couldn't be washed off. i mean, it could, but the skin was stained pinkish. hot pink, in fact. +_+

but not all bad happened today. we got to work closer and know our seniors better. something we haven't, er, really done before. really, today i felt that the seniors were our saviors. cause if they weren't there, we would be probably very lost and not know what to do and how to film. 


after today's incident, i recomfirmed the fact that i am more of a follower than a leader. not a blind follower, i still know what i want and have a brain, thank you very much. i do have opinions. i might be a little tooo opiniated on some stuff though... haha. does that still count as decision making? i HATE,i LOATHE making decisions. i try not to step into that territory as much as possible. just give me the work and your vision, and i'll try to make it come true. that's it. today, i think i might have gone overboard on the directing of the filming. OTL;;; i'm very sorry if i hurt anyone's feelings today, or might have appeared pushy. OTL IIIOTL i was so flustered and demanding... i feel bad for people working with me when i'm in that sort of situation or mood... so, sorry in advance :D

today's pickings...

heard that jeslin and me won the photo competition, with chessa. wasn't expecting it at all, cause my photography skills isn't good, especially with people-related. i'm better with plants and the non-living stuffs. another part of not expecting was cause i saw most of the photos that were submitted, and some of them were real nice. i predicted that chessa's would win [yesss! luck-ie~ xD], and thought that some other people would win too. so i was totally stun when i was told i won. ehehe.


today i went out to do some research, as well as pick-up some stuff i've been planning to get. got some i didn't expect to get, like the magazine. guess i kinda got lucky with that mag since its an oct issue and usually by now most stores don't have them, though i'm not quite sure if i should have bought it...hmmm >(
went to ion orchard get the min-ho folder (kyaaa! min ho sshi! XD) ehe. then went to artbox to have a look see and get the stuff i wanted. went around with li juan, and had quite some fun :D oh yeah! artbox stuff in s'pore is really expensive!! for the lined notebooks, it's like $2 more than when it is sold in korea!! and the some other plain notebooks and other notebooks, the range of exta cost was from like $5 all the way till $10! there was this really nice bag, suitcase style, that cost 69.90 bucks! we tried to see the tag, and not sure if i saw correctly, it said 9000 won. on average, 800won=S$1. therefore, it's supposed to be about S$12++. so the extra cost is about 50 dollars!!! my gawd.. the saddest part of all this, was while i was in seoul and at the art-box shop, i didn't see it!!! they didn't sell it in the shop...i think? sigh. what a waste.. another thing on my list to buy IF i ever go back to korea. :P


research wise, i got lucky. we went to meidi-ya later at liang court [which btw, i missed the bustop and we got off at the next one. sorry! ><" still as lousy as ever in my direction sense...]. saw the bowl i wanted! but still worried about the 'me-2' thing. if i want to do i guess i could, but not much originality. but its gonna be difficult to look for the stuff i want. TT_TT at ion, saw the bowl also at muji. but it was porcelain, and the size was okay. but the thing is, its really expensive... wondering if i'll have to buy it. i mean, it's not like the teacher's are going to say 'oh don't buy it'. if they could make us spend over a hundred bucks for the damned coffeetable book, i don't see why the packaging project should cost lesser.


some random stuff i thought about the last few days...

• milk is made from cow's blood. not sure if that is true, but still...  not as in made-manufacture, as in made-in-the-body kind of made. very disturbing fact [trust me, it was for me too] for all the milk drinkers out there.
• cows have 4 stomachs, if i remember correctly. there are specific names for the stomachs, but i'm lazy to go find it again. haha

the last thought before i started this post was how drastic my life has changed. i re-ran my conversations with li juan today, and i find that designing for me has gone from the 'push' stage to the 'shove' stage. is it wrong? when stuff goes from push to shove, should i continue? i haven't done any new pieces of work, my progress on my packaging project hasn't really moved, haven't continued to finish the maya report. i haven't progressed an inch at all. wonder if i'll even get past year 2, seeing as how lousy my works and photographs are...sigh.

i'm now using chrome, which seems to take a really long time to load. or was it my bad luck that i tried to enter when it was undergoing upgrading? hmm...