super lost. i sometimes wish i hadn't gone into this course, and gone to some normal boring course and continue my fantasies about the designing world. i haven't drawn since, like about 2 years coutning from now... stopped around the o levels, and then .... yep. so if i want to gain back my skill, i'll need looads of practice.
i think i've said this before, that i've lost the passion. to a certain extent, but i still can appreciate all the stuff. i sometimes get that feeling, but once i draw it out, the drawings don't look right, and the feeling just goes away again. can't really bring myself to draw, or even do my own works for that matter.
today was filming day for VMA. ARGHHH!!! stupid WB!! and CY!! they drew out the whole storyboard. and they NEVER COME!! WTH FREAK!! damn idiotic la! even if you do have a problem, can't you explain it to us? we're not teachers, we're your classmates. your age. our mind works almost like yours. (bleh, teenagers) so tell me, huh, why can't you tell us? are we that unapproachable? we're GIRLS for goodness sake! we don't have the strength to beat you up!
since there's alot of loopholes, i try to fill them in. what happen was, on tuesday we filmed, but the files ended up being corrupted. so no film, so we wasted our time, essentially. so we re-filmed the WHOLE FREAKING film. urgh. and the best part? the 2 main camera man and storyboarder wasn't there. good right? and i wore my tues clothes again for nothing. D: PLUS i got them stained with the red food dye. my forearms, hands, neck all kenna the red dye too. the best part about the dye was that it really looked like blood. the idiotic part was that it couldn't be washed off. i mean, it could, but the skin was stained pinkish. hot pink, in fact. +_+
but not all bad happened today. we got to work closer and know our seniors better. something we haven't, er, really done before. really, today i felt that the seniors were our saviors. cause if they weren't there, we would be probably very lost and not know what to do and how to film.
after today's incident, i recomfirmed the fact that i am more of a follower than a leader. not a blind follower, i still know what i want and have a brain, thank you very much. i do have opinions. i might be a little tooo opiniated on some stuff though... haha. does that still count as decision making? i HATE,i LOATHE making decisions. i try not to step into that territory as much as possible. just give me the work and your vision, and i'll try to make it come true. that's it. today, i think i might have gone overboard on the directing of the filming. OTL;;; i'm very sorry if i hurt anyone's feelings today, or might have appeared pushy. OTL IIIOTL i was so flustered and demanding... i feel bad for people working with me when i'm in that sort of situation or mood... so, sorry in advance :D
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