First Post

this is sort of an intro. to this blog, and myself, i guess.

i'd like to state here that this will be sort of an journal for me, but i'm not a veeery consistant updater, but i will try to keep updating constantly. it will more like 'thought-of-the-day' or what i'm feeling on that day, or perhaps some reflections i realised.

SO i'd really like to say that any blasphemy, insult, or comments that i make MAY have been in the heat of things, or while i'm super passionate and not reeeeally thinking straight...so yeah, don't blame me too much. basically, i want this to be a record of what i feel when i was 18. so yeah... (hey, seems like MLP classes helped! haha! :D)



soo, a little intro:

i'm starting this blog/diary 2 days before my birthday. :D haha. i'm about 1.6m [so wishing i was taller], and the last i weighed was 37.5kg i think. i'm pretty ugly (oxymoron? +_+), i admit. i detest myself. but i can't stand people staring at me like i'm a road attraction. i think i'm full of contradictions and am very indicisive. i can want something, but don't want it at the same time. it's confusing, i know, but hey, i like to be confusing. :D

the course i'm taking right now is the Dip. in Creative Media Design in Singapore Polytechnic, which by the way, i think, does NOT need to be changed. the alma maters for me is Keng Seng Pri [pulled into Gan Eng Seng later], Beigjing International School of Singapore, Queenstown Primary, and Queenstown Sec. Innova JC, not very sure whether to add, cause i've only stayed there for about 2-3 months.

some things i treasure most are family, friends/friendships, books, and drawing. some things i really 'rather-not-get-that-close-to' are condesending people, people whoe waste talent, big beady eyed insects and parsley. *shudder*

things i'm interested in are photography, beading, reading, drawing, crafting, and maybe sewing. i'm not stating that these are my strengths, cause at this point in time, i don't really believe that i have any. i say that they are interests, not strengths. i am a firm believer that hard work is most important, but right now, i don't know if that hard work can win talent or not. i'll say it out straight - i believe i do NOT have talent. try as i might, i don't have it. yes, i am a perfectionist, but talent is something i do not have. i envy those who have one, but really detest people who waste it. (then i'll go 'but its their life, who are YOU trying to judge people??'hat

that's it for my first post, i think...i'll add more stuff when i feel like it, or when i remember it. i swear, my RAM is totally getting smaller by the day...

PS. i'm blunt. like really blunt at times. so when i say something that wasn't 'in-the-moment', i mean it.